Tuesday, 12 January 2016

Not guilty...!

Why did You do that Indra? Why did you kill your daughter? Why did you want to kill your son... he is your son for god's sake? Can any mother kill her own daughter for Money? I Can't believe. How can you be so cruel...? Polyandry, the murder of your own daughter, deception... you are a blot on the entire female species. You should have not born in India. You ran away from your home, got married thrice.. & you dumped everyone who came in the way of your success... your parents, children, husbands, everyone! ... And you are still smiling, still confident, still we don't see guilt, regret or fear in your eyes.... why Indra?  you never regretted what you did?

..And Indra responds with a faint smile: 
Will you ever regret having lived the life you wanted for yourself? I loved myself, I punished everyone who cheated me, hated me & tried to stop me from getting where i wanted to be.... what is wrong in it? You hypocrites, It is perfectly ok for you people if a man commits same offences I have been booked for... But you can't digest a woman living life on her own terms. You want to prosecute me, do it.. but don't give me this guilty & regret shit.

You'll never know the pain to see your own children cheating you... You can never measure the amount of grief and anger you feel when your family member exploits you & your mother keeps mum. People live for themselves. I lived for myself . I erased every fear & threat of my life... may be it was not what you say is legal or was not as per moral grounds weak people set for themselves, but it was OK for me. I am ready to face the consequences only if your legal system could prove me guilty. But as for my own take on me, I am not guilty. I simply lived life on my own terms. I just did not play safe & got caught.          

Wednesday, 6 January 2016

Reality Bites

-You remember Shyamli, the most stylish girl of our college..? 

- "Shy..am..li."(a beautiful picture of a beautiful, bubbly girl with long hair, sculpted figure, big-expressive eyes and warm smile came alive in Piyush's Mind. He so, so wanted her for himself, wanted to propose her, marry her... but he never expressed his feelings for her & she got married to one of his classmates just after completing graduation.) .. "Yes, Yes I know Shyamli.", Piyush said to Rahul.

-Her life has completely changed in past five years. His husband died 3 years back. In-laws threw her out of the house along with her 1 year old daughter. She's been doing trivial jobs since then to earn bread and butter. You are at a very good post, you can help her find a decent job.

- Of course, of course, there is a vacancy in my office as well. I need a PS. She'll get a good salary. Call her tomorrow.

(next day Piyush's eagerness to meet Shyamli made him reach office early)    

Shyamli reached at 12. She was not obese, but sculpted figure was not there anymore. Protruding tummy, sagging shoulders and hesitant walk had made her look very ordinary.  Her earnest efforts to make both ends meet after her husband's death, had taken its toll on Shyamli. Thick, long hair had now turned into a thin braid.  Her beautiful eyes were in contours now. Her wrinkle stricken face with a dull smile were making her look completely alien in the plush office of Piyush which was full of modern, trendy & lively youngsters. She spoke with a hesitant tone- " Rahul called me yesterday. He told you had a vacancy for personal secretary & you would hire me on the post."  

-Yeah, I wanted to, But my boss rejected the idea. He said you were not qualified enough to hold the post. Actually, I have an important meeting to attend. Peon is bringing tea, have it before you leave... (..and Piyush left in haste.)

Saturday, 2 January 2016

God is gonna Love you Anyways

So, another year has passed, what about the goals you set for yourself, achieved any...?

Nope. every time I turn over a new leaf.., every time I begin anew.., every time there is more hope than the last time.. and every time ...I fail...I don't know what's happening with me, why I m losing every time? Will I be a loser always?
You tried to find out the reason..? 

Perhaps it is my lack of perseverance and discipline. As they say, failure only means you did not try your best. I feel guilty.

You know dear, god has created some people like this. They lack will power. But they are the people who add value to the people who are determined and achievers. Just think, if everyone would be determined to achieve, god will have to fulfill everybody's wishes and life will be in total chaos. So he made people like you who never cease to try but somehow never achieve what they want. some are fickle n some are determined. Don't feel guilty of being a failure. Victory gives happiness and failure gives experiences.

Also, there is a condition, if you'll keep trying to defy your failure, god will definitely have to rethink his decision of having created you a loser. He'll know that you have a fighter's spirit and then he'll change your destiny and shall turn you an achiever. But remember, you be an achiever or a loser, god is gonna love you anyways.